l0veis4l0sersxx

Fri, 14 Sep 2007 21:48:15 GMT

my dads moving in two days
to tenneessee again
and i just found out.
and my mom might get laid off
i just found that out too
and, highschool aint to sweet
what a wonderful life

Mon, 03 Sep 2007 17:12:27 GMT

we have school tomorrow AHHH!
i cant believe it. that im gonna
be in highschool.
everythings gonna change
im gonna miss some people.
like you loose all of your middle school
friends when your in highschool. its sad
i dont know what really to expect
but im scared. im really excited to
meet some new people. and hopefully a good guy.
people that will like me for who i am.

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 17:06:29 GMT

AHHH'
this summer sucked
basicly the past 3 years of my life has
i just think its pretty pathetic how
i try to talk to people i havent talked to
in a while. and they blow me off
the only reason why im nervous
for highschool cause i dont want a
fucking repeat of middle school
i need highschool. i need to meet
new people. i need to meet a good guy
i need to change my life up.
and the past 3 years of life have
showed me who definetly NOT to be friends with
thanks bitches

Wed, 22 Aug 2007 18:54:58 GMT

blah blah blah.
waterford is sooo boring.
i swear theres nothing here.

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 03:31:15 GMT

i havent been on here in sososo long.
so i figured id update things.

summers been alright. not the best
i just cant believe school starts in two weeks.
im gonna miss all my kettering friends alot
like theres people ive been bestfriends with since elementry
and it just makes me sad that were all growing up so fast
idk its just gonna be a big change & im really really nervous
but a little bit excited at the same time.
i think over the summer ive changed my thoughts on thing
like ive changed for the better.

i got my homecoming dress :DDDDD

i really wish i had a better dad

& i really hate stupid bitches that think there all that.
like people that talk shit just to do it. your IMMMATURE

Sun, 18 Mar 2007 00:49:03 GMT

fuck you

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 21:42:36 GMT

i want to go back in time.
the worlds going too fast

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 02:45:34 GMT

im in sucha wierd mood
i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.
is anyone as much afraid of highschool
as i am?

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 19:23:59 GMT

i've been thinking alot lately.
so many people are changing
it makes me sad. to think i
actually knew these people &
now there just somebody totally different.
ive come to the conclusion of who
my real friends are & who i can
trust. only a few people at that.

i also decided what highschool
im pretty sure i want to go to.
im excited for highschool n everything
but im afraid to see people change more
& all that shit. idk

i dont want to grow up
& at the same time I do. idk why

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 00:51:51 GMT

life fucking sucks.
i need to quit lying to myself
the guy i liked is now going out with
another girl. slksldklasdlasdl
i fucking hate my sister.
i need to stop with this i love
my family bullshit. i dont
CAROLYN=FAILURE

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 02:07:25 GMT

(:
ive been doing super fantastico!
im getting closer with alot
of my old friends. ive missed them all
alot.! and im super excited for
pine knob tomorrow!

Wed, 24 Jan 2007 03:05:34 GMT

life was alot easier
when you only had to think
about which swing your gonna go on

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 23:27:28 GMT

agh people piss me off sometimes
how they cant be truthful with me
its like honestly do you think im
stupid or immature or somethin?
i know alot more about the world
then you stupid people.

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 03:21:25 GMT

this weekend has been interesting.
my dad moved back from tenneessee yesterday
and i can say im real glad hes back.
im confident enough to know that hes gonna
make the right decisions. and my
grandparents really did save him.
my family may make me want to rip
my hair out alot but im glad to
call them my family. i can finally
honestly say that. but anyways.
idk. ive been thinking about
valentines comin up in a few weeks.
gosh i want a valentine. that
would be so cute. ive never had one
b4. i really want a boyfriend too.
askdasdsalkdlaskdl
i need to stop dreamin

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 03:06:32 GMT

((((((:
pine knob was super fun!
i got new ski goggles earlier. i love em
but im for sure going back to pine knob
soon. hopefully to learn how to snowboard.!

i like someone new (: im confused about it
but i think things would work out (:
im gonna go sleeeeeeeeeeep

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 03:44:23 GMT

sjfdkajdfkjdkfjsdkf
im soooo confused
i dont know what to do about highschool
i can go whereever i wanna go.
but its just the fact is theres ups and downs
for both of um. like i feel if i go to mott,
i'll finally break free and find my place.
but i dont want to go through all the crap
my sisters going through. and like if i went
to kettering, i feel that i wouldnt fit in
with anyone. because thats how it feels now.
no one treats me right. but i want to set out
on the right path for my life!
i neeed help!

i wish life wasnt so confusing and i had the
easy door out. you would think i would be
excited about my dad moving back home on sunday,
but im really not. i mean i miss him and all
but i dont think hes ready to move home. and that
he'll get involved with the wrong shit again
and make our lives hell.!

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 23:37:40 GMT

boring day.!
agh im mad.
i was supposed to go to this church thing
today for my confirmation. and i had to be
there! so now i dont know whats gonna happen
stupid mom. dfllsdfl

but anyways. idk i havent been up to much
lately. i think me and stephanie are gona
go to pine knob. and i know some other ppl
are goin up there. so it'll prly be fun

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 04:06:07 GMT

wow so i havent posted in like 349829384 984958948598 days!
i hate it when i do this. i always forget. and when i remember
i get to lazy to write anything down.

so yeah. my birthday was yesterday!
a pretty pathetic one tooo. i spent most of
the day home alone and i didnt get the beadspread
i wanted from delias because they were sold out of them!
im soooo mad.

and ive been feelin real sick lately. everytime i eat
something i get a horrible stomach ache and a bad headache!
i hate it. i dont know why im acting like that either.

oh my gosh i want a boyfriend so badly right now!
its been like a thousand years since. if only
there were some decent guys in our school
that arnt assholes. atleast i can dream.
maybe i'll find someone in highschool.
which i cant wait for.!

Sat, 23 Dec 2006 16:53:49 GMT

ive realized alot of things this past week
like who my real friends are.
and alot about my family.
like me and my sister, it use to be a trainwreck
but now i consider her one of my best friends
shes changed alot lately. and i know she'll
support me through no matter what.
shes a greater friend then anyone else i have.

the serious meaning of christmas family
and to be thankful of what you have. not presents
and even though my family is messed up, im still
thankfull for them. and the future is looking bright
next year hopefully will have big change. and
people might be noticing a different attitude from
me when i come back to school. for the better.

im looking forward to tommorrow because my
family will be toghether again. even with
my parents being divorced. my dads coming home
today. and i think i might see him tonight too.
but anyways, im in a good mood. and im not
letting anyone put me down.

2 more days until christmas :]

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 20:10:00 GMT

so yeah. nothings really new.
i just have alot of stress on
my shoulders, and i just dont
know what to do anymore.

have you ever felt let down
every single day of your life?
like no matter what you do
nothing will never change.
like your stuck inside a shell,
with no one to talk to, and
afraid about every choice you make?
not knowing who actually would
give a shit if you died at any
moment? have you never had a
real best friend?
have you ever felt invisible
and like everyword that comes out
of your mouth is forgotten?
or critisized?
THATS HOW I FEEL

im sick of being afraid.
im sick of being lonely.
im sick of feeling like SHIT

let me just say i cant WAIT
until highschool.

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 03:40:50 GMT

so the week has been goood
im pretty happy with everything
i just wish everyone would
get in the christmas spirit though
i mean your suppose to be showing
people you care about them, not
treating them like crap.

but other then that yeah im pretty
excited for christmas
theres nothing really new for me
to talk about. but yeahhhhh

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 01:24:13 GMT

sheesh i havent updated in a while
busy busy busy.
things are going alott better
better with friends and sorta better with
family, but whatever.

blah i know i sound stupid but
i really miss having a boy in my life
its been seriously like a year since
ive been in what i consider a relationship
not a silly 4 day thing. gay
but i dont know, i miss it

i wish now everyone would get in the holiday
spirt. comeon everyone 20 more days!

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 22:40:53 GMT

I havent updated in a while

let me just start with im not
having the time of my life.
i swear i hate my family,
and school? hate it hate it hate it
im getting so fed up with everything
how much do i have to do to make
just one thing go right to make me
happy. everyone is so selfish
and doesnt give a crap about neone.
it makes me sick. self centered
concieted people, i hate it how
people act.

seriously i wish some people
would suffer, or go back to
when jesus was around. maybe
they would appreciate others
just like he did.

on the other hand i know
i have a few people behind
my back. like allie
greatest friend i could ever ask for
& were going to the parade on sunday :]
should be fun

Sun, 19 Nov 2006 18:14:29 GMT

Blah blah blah another boring weekend
im in the same moood i was in yesterday
i feel like running around the block
and never stopping. or doing something fun.

i really want to go to the mall, tons
of cute things in the stores right now.

im leaving in two days. i need to get a break from michigannnn
and im gonna see my Daddy :] i think its been like 4 months?
and its going to be thanksgiving :] good week coming up

Sat, 18 Nov 2006 00:13:20 GMT

Thank goodness the week is over
it went reallly really slow.

hm, so today was another boring day
im bored now too. And kind of anoyed
i dont really know what to do with the whole liking boy situation. because i mean im tired of getting my hopes up, and i can just face the fact that its going to be a while until i find the right guy. why do boys have to be fags, agh.

im happy its the weekend
im hanging out with allie on sunday :]
its been a while since ive done something on the weekend
how pothetic.

38 more days til christmas
58 til my birthday :]
& on wedsnday im leaving for TN
laterr